Once again, it’s that time. August. School starting. Football games. Volleyball. Tennis. Clubs. Homework. Homework. Homework.
So much. So busy.
So we’ve added all these things back into our schedule, and being back at school for a week, I’ve already noticed something that’s kind of disappointing.
It’s harder for me to focus on Jesus all the time. It’s harder for me to set time out for Him every single day.
During the summer, there’s not nearly as much to worry about. Well, at least for me. So I almost always had plenty of extra time on my hands to spend some quality time with Him.
Another thing that made this easier was the people I spent time with during the summer.
I saw my family, my bible study girls, my best friends, churchgoers, and that’s about it. I didn’t have to be around everyone all the time like I do at school.
When I’m around all these people, it’s harder for me to stay grounded and on task. I don’t want people to think I’m weird or annoying or this or that. Also, the people I’m around now offer a whole new array of beliefs and actions that are different from what I had become accustomed to over the past three months. Being right smack dab in the middle of it all gets overwhelming and almost consuming.
It takes my focus off of the Lord and puts it on all the things I have to get done. It puts it on all the people I have to please. It also puts it on myself.
I start thinking, “what can make this easier for me?” “How can I just get through this day with no struggles or discomfort?” I hadn’t realized it until this year, but the school year makes me selfish.
Why is it way easier for me to think of how I can benefit myself without looking around me? Without wondering how I can benefit others.
It’s simple things like being kind. Like just being present. Being there for people. Offering up advice. Simple things that I thought I would notice, I thought I would be on top of, but I didn’t until someone told me. Until someone pointed it out to me. How am I supposed to be the light in the school if I’m focusing on me and what I need to get done.
Like that girl that sits alone at the table. The girl I never saw because I was too busy inhaling my food and looking at my phone and chatting with my friends.
It’s me thinking about what part I want in the musical and what parts I want my friends to have. Without taking into consideration how amazing the other auditions were.
There’s lots of stress. There’s lots of responsibilities. Lots of things that need to be done. But they still shouldn’t be ranking on top of our time with the Lord.
Don’t let the stress turn you away. Don’t let the hustle and bustle alter your focus. Keep being the light you are. Regardless of who wants to see it shining. Just let ’em have it.
This school year remember to chase those A’s, but chase after His heart, too.
Keep being the kind hearted person you are. Stay aware of the people around and their feelings. Give love to the people around you. Even the people that you don’t like. Even the people that it would just be weird to think of loving them. Yeah. Those people too. All of them.
Keep. Being. A. Light.