If you have EVER been in school, you know that everybody wants to know what you want to be when you’re older. It’s one of the first things your teachers want to know about you. My answer used to be “rodeo cowgirl” or “country singer.” Unfortunately, my teachers don’t take me seriously anymore when I tell them I’m going to be a singer so I can skip college. It’s really a shame.
My family often, very often, jokes about how many times I’ve changed my mind over just the past year. I don’t blame them at all either. Most of my ideas were just random guesses that sounded pretty cool. I’ve always been interested in cosmetology and had considered it before, but decided it wasn’t for me. So I thought about being a chiropractor, but no I don’t think I can handle that. Dermatology is really so interesting and I love popping pimples. Maybe a physician’s assistant, but actually I get too queasy around blood and needles. Maybe I’ll come back to cosmetology. No that still doesn’t feel like it’s what I need to do. Okay, okay. I really have finally made a decision.
I’m just going to be famous so I can quit worrying about it.
Everything’s fine, guys, seriously. No need to worry about my future because I got it all figured out.
Ha. Yeah that’s a nice little lie to tell myself. But, I do have good news. No, I don’t have anything figured out, but I don’t need to. I’m DONE with the dumb worrying about it all (by done, I mean I’m going to try my hardest to be done, because I know I’m going to fail). “Where will I go to college? What will I go for? When do I have to have it figured out?”
Writing has always came to me pretty easily. I only wrote when I needed to, though. I never thought that God would put this new interest in my heart. This interest to share my words with people. Maybe this will put me in the place I need to be. Maybe it will fail and just be one small part of my journey. He puts things in our lives that are unexpected and we have to learn to be okay with it and accept it. Use it.
I’m done trying to sort out my future. Jesus is laughing at me when I say that I am going to absolutely do this or that with my life. Because he’s the only one that knows. He will lead me where HE needs me to be. Not where I want to be. So I have decided to trust him with it all. Which is definitely, completely, totally way easier said than done. But, boy, am I gonna try my hardest. It is like making a mockery of God when we worry about what we will do. He has it all under control. And He’s told us this plenty of times.
“Do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?”
You see guys, the only thing worrying does is make us feel worse. Worse physically and worse about whatever situation we’re struggling with. Quit trying to wrestle with God and his promise. He has us. You just have to put your faith into action.
Taking that risk is one of the hardest we could ever do. It’s also the most important. Instead of praying at night, “God, please give me this job,” or “Lord, make this thing happen,” try something like this:
Father, I don’t know where you want to lead me. You know I want these things, but you also know if they are best for me or not. Lead me in the direction you see best fit for me. Help me to lean entirely on you instead of myself. Don’t let me be discouraged if something doesn’t work out because I know that Your will is being done, not mine. Thank you, Jesus.